was on the way to tuition when i felt this tight choking feeling in my chest area. feels as though my heart is choked up and my lungs are going to burst. million thoughts ran through my brain. like a million voices asking me how the hell am i going to finish studying everything on hand. even during tuition, the tightness in my chest rose up to my throat, causing slight breathlessness. questions on how am i going to do well for my exams and finish my essays and projects bombarded me in my brain. the very same urge to cry out came back again. scenes of crying in the toilet flash back in my mind. those were the o level days. a level's crying was done in the council room at night study. now in uni, i'm still fighting back the tears welling up. the stress and the burden came back again. my head feels like it's going to burst with all the pressure.

this a sign of mental depression i inherited from my mother. i know i stress myself out too much. but i cant help it. it's even causing the choking sensation and breathlessness now. i need to see a doctor for some stress medicine soon.